Is it just me or is there something oddly comforting in clinging to the familiar? Even if something isn't necessarily making you happy, you just don't want to let it go. Maybe it isn't making you unhappy but for some reason it makes you feel like you are less to let it go. A relationship, for instance. Does it make you feel like you are not good enough if the other person doesn't meet you where you want them to? Or, if (gasp) they want to leave. Even if, when you are really honest with yourself, maybe it isn't totally working. Maybe it isn't even meeting all of your needs. In all reality you probably should just let it be what it is or let it go or at the very least just not worry about it. And by all means you shouldn't take it personally. But. Clinging. It is so very tempting. Oh, in my mind I know that I only really want what fits me. I can honestly say that. But somehow I still don't want to let go. I want to take it personally. Like it has something to do with me. It most certainly does not. I have to let it go and completely accept it for what it is. I love this person. As a person. And I deeply want him to be happy. And I want to be happy. I cannot let the reality of the situation make me feel like I am being rejected because that could not be further from the truth. Ahhhhh. It feels so good to let my truth out. I was trying to be all vague at the beginning of this post, but let's call it what it is. No need to beat around the bush. This is what is really on my mind and I feel so much relief admitting it. I even think I can deal with the reality of it now and allow for what is and not try to manipulate things in my head only to end up making myself miserable. May we all find what fits us. And maybe more importantly, may we allow space for those things that fit us by not forcing things that maybe do not in the name of our ego, or taking it personally, or out of fear of the unknown, or whatever the reason is. Let it go. And trust that when you let it go, something else, that is even more suited to you, will appear in it's absence. Give some time and space. And trust.